I pulled a lot of my older blog posts due to oversharing. Journaling has always been a way to get my feelings out in front of me. Whether they’re accurate observations or wild assumptions, I have to get them out before they cloud my mind and judgment. Sometimes, they can have a detrimental effect. I’m emotionally tied to these pieces of writing, even though they’re merely pixels on a screen. Same goes for my work – there’s a little emotional attachment to all the things I’ve created. They’re little pieces of me. So when I feel like these pieces are things that have negative effects on others, it really has a negative effect on me.

You’ll notice big gaps in my entries. That is by design. I just don’t feel like communicating my thoughts, feelings, observations to the masses, even though I desperately want to be heard at times. It’s a weird space to be in.

I’ve been feeling less than thrilled with my life and its direction. I’ve shared out a lot of pieces of myself, and I suppose I am feeling like the returns have not been what I had hoped. That’s the weight of having expectations on things. You can put things out there in the hopes you will attract great things, but when it doesn’t happen, the disappointment sets in, and the more it happens the easier it is to get down and feel demotivated. So if you’ve wondered why things have been quiet, it isn’t necessarily because I’m in a bad spot. I’m ok. I just need to improve to get out of that bad spot so I can show you all the good I’ve done.

It’s just not the right time to share those wins yet.